A Confusion Catastrophe

 

A CONFUSION CATASTROPHE

They always tell a lie

I always end up crying

I feel left out, lonely

But they’re there, friends and family

 

Am I even worth it?

I ask myself harshly

These stitches I always knit

Around my heart fastly

 

Discouraged, that’s how I feel

I’m not good enough, I know

I’m blank, I don’t know what to tell

In this endless stream, can I row?

 

I want to inspire you from misery

But can I do that?

When I am lost?

I feel sick, bad, helpless and dead

Oh! What a dread!

I’m making everything out of nothing

But, what do I do? I’m no king

 

I am afraid

But of what? Why?

‘I don’t know' my heart said

It no more wants to try

 

That’s how I feel

Like a wrecked child confused

Between whom it loves

Mom or Dad?

So, I delayed. And I have a very good excuse for that (something that I'm best at). 

School! I'm going to physical school and the stress has made me delay. Waking up early in the morning is not something me or my body is fond of. But here I am! With the first poem for my dear blog.

Full disclosure though, school and exams weren't the only reason I delayed. I just didn't know what to write for my next blog post. Took me an entire month to come with something to post!

Confusion isn't something to be embarrassed about. Not knowing anything won't make you a dumb person. No one knows everything. Experience is necessary to be clear about anything in general. And I've heard we'd be the most confused during our teenage years. 

This is something to be talked about by the way. Confusion can lead to catastrophes as I mentioned earlier. It can cause inefficiency in the work we do and it may lessen our self-confidence. You and I both know that these factors are very important in life. 

But what to do when in a dangerous confusion? For me, it is writing it down and making things simpler and clearer. I like maintaining checklists for my work to be organised. If I still can't recover then I seek advice from my close ones. The ultimate option for me is to go to my parents. I go to them when I can't recover after all these levels. 

But what if even this won't solve my problems? Then the solution must be with me only. It could be within me. I'd just have to take a deep breath and think with clarity. Not overthink (another thing I'm good at).

Wow! So I'm really here huh? Thanks for reading this post!! It really means a lot. I hope I helped you in some way. Let's meet another time. But this time, earlier. LOL!